My first Mother's (to-be) Day

Austin had a work opportunity up north he couldn't pass up, so he left on Thursday and wasn't sure if he'd be home Sunday or Monday. Well, it ended up being Monday so I was like ohhh this is going be so fun sitting home by myself! Not!
Austin has the worlds sweetest Grandparents...next to mine of course ;).... and they insisted on having me over for dinner and I was so grateful! I'm so comfortable with his family, it was like being at my own Grammy's house. We had a nice roast dinner and got to chat and relax.
While I was at work my dad called to wish me Happy Mother's Day and I could just tell he'd been crying (break my heart). This was the first mother's day since my Grammy passed. Every holiday has been a challenge for him because she played such a huge part in all our lives. He said when he woke up he just knew he had to come to Cedar to visit her grave and was on his way down! Yay! I've missed my daddy and couldn't wait to see him.
After having an early dinner with Austin's grandparents I headed up to Cedar and it was such an amazing feeling walking into my Gram and Gramp's house. Just walking through the door is like a flash back to my childhood and I was instantly calmed and just happy. We went to her grave where my dad had left her a sweet note and some flowers, and although it was very emotional it was so comforting to be there, just as though she was standing right there with us reminiscing.
When we got back to the house my dad had made a roast dinner, so I got 2 roast dinners in one day (don't judge!) and it was delish!
My Gramps is just the sweetest person ever. Like I just want to squeeze him all the time. He'd decided to stay home from church because he didn't know if he could handle being there when it'd be all about moms. So he prayed on Saturday night that he'd have a good and happy day on Sunday. He kept saying, "when I woke up this morning I just KNEW it was going to be a great day, and then you guys showed up". I could tell he was just as grateful as we were to have us all together.
Family is amazing. I love my family and my new family.

On a side note. Last week Austin and I were watching our nightly episode of Grey's Anatomy in bed and it just happened to be the saddest episode of a pregnant girl getting in a car accident and let me tell you.... I. cried. HARD. like uncontrollably bawling at the thought of this lady losing her baby. I think it was a good part hormones, but also at that moment it just hit me how much I already LOVE this baby growing inside me, and how I would just do anything to protect her/him. (I can't stand the thought of calling my baby 'it', and until we know what it is, you'll have to deal with her/him) It's crazy how I can't feel her/him or don't know the gender yet, but I'm soo attached.

I feel so blessed to be a mommy-to-be to this tiny baby and just can't wait to meet her/him, and do my best to teach her/him everything I know about how to be a good person and succeed in this crazy world.

Growing a baby is hard, exhausting, beautiful, re

warding work. So Happy Mother's Day to me, and to all the mommies who inspire me to be the best mom I am capable of!

[aren't they handsome men?? Love my gramps and daddy]

 

[baby bump looks huge here! It seems to be tiny sometimes and huge others. weird. normal??]