my thoughts..

written on 10/9/13

These days, my thoughts are completely consumed by this baby boy. 

Everything I do I imagine how it's going to be 4.5 weeks from now when he's here with me. 

I have been trying to enjoy the small things that are 'my time' like napping, running errands, coming and going whenever I please and staying up late and sleeping in.

At least once a day I find myself wandering into his room for no apparent reason, usually sit on the rocking chair and just think. I try to imagine what it's going to be like to hold my own little tiny baby in my arms and kiss his sweet face.

It's coming down to the last few weeks of him being so safe and snuggled in my belly. I have so many emotions thinking about him being born:

I am overly excited to finally meet him!

I am nervous about delivery... mainly worried about Austin not making it home in time (since he's still working in Vernal)

I am SAD for him to be out, and have to share him with the world! I am obsessed with feeling him squirm around...even when he wakes me in the middle of the night.

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I started this post a week ago and just wasn't sure where I was going with it, so I saved it and never had the time get back to it.
I remember exactly how I was feeling as I was writing it though. I was having overwhelming emotions about everything. I was missing my husband and my brain was going a million miles an hour.
Here I sit, in this hospital bed a week later, and my emotions (and hormones) are still running wild.